MY BUGGED LIFE
I am now falling into pieces! Why some people hurt me? Why are they treating me this way? I feel so useless, exhausted and humiliated! I’m doing my best to help them!
I have a friend named LM (her nick). We are always together, but I doubt if she really a friend to me. It’s because she never treats me well. LM used to hurt me. She neglected me. She never shows me love! When I was wounded, she never cures me. I was bleeding and I need her she didn’t even take a glimpse on me. I need her shoulders to lean on, but she never cares to offer me one. She never helps me when I’m in great trouble.
My days are not complete without these trouble; She is always gone leaving me fearful and alone. I even heard someone told her that instead of dumping her waste anywhere she must place it in me. She agreed without hesitation, saying “yes Ma’am”. I was stunned when I realized that the one who persuade her to do it is her teacher. My tears burst and I cried at the top of my voice but she’s too dumb to hear me. At this moment of my doom, I envy my cohorts whose fates are different from mine. I hear their laughter, showing contentment. It’s because their friends pamper them with so much love and care. But me, I am in great sorrow.
Many painful days have passed by. Those pains lure me to do something against LM but, I simply can’t. I still hopeful that one day she’ll realize my worth. I’m still her friend. I always do pray that one day LM will open her mind and heart. She may realize my value. She may refrain from doing wrong things that could affect her life as a student. She may know how to take care of me, for I could help her to achieve her goal.
Most of all, she may become conscious on the importance of education.
MY CRAZY LIFE
My life has been a very long and hard life for me. My life goes so many ways too much darkness and loneliness gets me crazed. I know I get upset and mad with things I can’t control. And I go off the rail so crazy and blinded by desire and wanting to dish out revenge against those who screw me in the ground and treat you like you’re below a human just for the pleasure of doing it to you!
I have lots of troubles that my friends don’t know I have and I can’t tell them what’s wrong. Something very bad had happen to me when I was 17 yrs old, it will affect me for the rest of my life! But I am always there with a smile for my friends and will be there for them to get them though the bad times they are going through. It’s good to know that they are there for me to help me top swing down that vine of life.
After I got home it started me to think how valuable my life is, and make to think more how lucky you got it here on this planet we all are playing on. And all the good friends you have!
I am also afraid my friends will forget about me when they have families of their own and when they are old and that would kill me if I was forgotten?
MY BEST FRIEND (My Big mistake)
Well, after almost eight years, I encountered another backstabber that really pissed me off. I know her attitude and I know she is the type that won’t be able to shut her mouth; but nevertheless, I treated her as a friend. My big mistake.
This certain girl heard of some things from some sources and started spreading baseless rumors about it. I am so busy to study that I barely got time to go out with my friends. Then all of the sudden, this is what I would hear? I found out that some certain someone said that ‘a lot of people hate me’. So is this all because of the rumors that have been spreading like fire? Maybe.
My point is though, she could have at least talked to me about it to confirm if what she assumed is really true, but she didn’t. She chose to open her damn mouth and spread this rumors that is totally not true. How can that rumor be possibly true? Have you checked my Friendster profile?
Aside from that, she even told everyone that if I don’t want to go home, I would always drag someone to stay with me. For your information, I don’t drag them. I asked them if they could stay. If they couldn’t, then I would ask them to go. It isn’t like I couldn’t stay outside alone. I can and I am used to it. I actually prefer being alone than being in a crowd. I prefer peace over noise. But that point aside, what does it have to do with her? What right does she have to get mad at me for that? It’s my life. It is up to me if I want to ask someone to stay with me or not, is it not?
Someone told me to apologize. No, I WILL DEFINITELY NOT APOLOGIZE. I didn’t do anything wrong. If I did, I would apologize. I know how to lower my pride when needed, but this time, I don’t think it is the time for that. She is the one who spread rumors about me with confirming it first. She is the one who should have talked to me about it before opening her mouth. She is the one that have to apologize to me for spreading the rumors and ruining my reputation. If I was the one who ruined my own reputation, fine. But if someone else do so, and for one that isn’t true, no can do.
You know how I feel? I feel betrayed. It is like the trust that I had for her shattered. I know that she would continue to bash and ruin my reputation, I know her that much. But I will still not apologize. Let her bash. Let her ruin my reputation. I don’t care because they aren’t true. I don’t care as long as I got my true friends with me.
Well if there’s a con in a situation there is always a pro. The good thing about this situation is that I would be able to know who my true friends are. I’m really glad that they didn’t believe those assumptions and trusted the friend that they know of. I was also able to realize that true friendship is really hard to gain and that relationships, no matter how close the bond is, will snap when bent. I messaged her about it to let her know how I feel but I’m not really expecting a decent reply. Okay fine.